Going through the court process, I wanted to drop the charges so many times, not because I wanted him to get away with it, but I was just so tired of it all. I wasn’t
suicidal per se, but I wanted to die. I didn’t know there was a difference until I felt it. This was the moment that I froze, half from fear and half from survival instincts kicking in. Freezing was a big part of why I did not believe I was raped for several days. I’ve seen disgusting comments about rape victims who are overweight. I definitely thought of that when I had these photos taken. I knew I could get negative responses. I was able to go to counceling and seek legal advice through the Resource and Crisis Center in my area. The amount of support that I received from family, friends, and even strangers was overwhelming.